5 things i never thought i could

2 November 2017

go to a concert all by myself
travel alone
follow kickboxing classes
enjoy eating out
be so open on the internet

These are all things that once seemed impossible for me.

I used to get really anxious over the idea of going to a concert, let alone, to go there all by myself. And I did, I went to The head and the heart and it was a really great experience. I am sure lots of people have no trouble going alone to a concert, but for me it was a scary step. And I am really glad I did.

To travel alone. I never went somewhere abroad alone. But I have traveled alone. In many different ways, and I liked it. I love the independence, that you can waste your time without bothering anyone and I love passing things I don’t particularly care about. Having said this, I also really like good company. But it’s nice to know that you don’t need it in order to enjoy your travels.

As a weak skinny person I never thought I would get the courage to go to a kickboxing class. I think that at 20, even a 5 year old would kick my ass in such a class. But I liked the idea, and eventually I just went there without caring if I would ‘fail’. I would do it for myself. And not give a f*ck. And now it is not even a year later, and I am 100% sure it was on of my best decisions in life. Not exaggerating!

Enjoy eating out, never thought I could. Apparently I can!

Internet, I was never to fond on the idea that everyone, all over the world, could ‘find’ something about me. But here i am anyways.

Remember! We are capable of so many great things. Never ever let your fear prevent you from doing what you love.

You can do more then you think, you can do anything you set your mind to, never give up!

Lots of love,

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| Schrijfsel | we are all a little fragile

we are all a little fragile

8 October 2017

i believe most, possibly everyone has a story, a beautiful story. And for many years i had the idea of somehow bringing those stories together. Whether i would interview people, or share their stories in a different way. I was sure about one thing; the obstacles of life, the hard times, every struggle we have gone through. They have helped shape us to who we are now.

So now i have the idea of using my blog as a sort of platform where these stories can be told, shared and loved. Because we all go through some shitty things, but we are never alone. We can share stories, nourish love and grow as persons.

I want stories written with a certain quality, not so much in the text but mostly in the underlying message it gives of. And i want my blog to be inspiring and positive. As i said we are never alone, and i really believe that by sharing, we can all benefit.

I always loved writing about the unspoken subjects, taboos and things that make us vulnerable. I haven’t always had the guts to share what i write. But as i grow as a person, i find it easier to talk about topics that are close to me. Things i wish i knew and words that we all need to hear sometimes.

But this goes way beyond me. So it got me thinking, why don’t i introduce some guest writers. Non-commercial, love-based sharing of stories.

I want to start it small by asking my friends and family, from there depending on how that goes, who knows to what it will lead. Maybe one day it will grow to a platform where everyone can share stories. Quality written stories told from the hearth.

I would love to hear what your thoughts are on this, and i am happy to say that the first guest post will be up within next week! And if you are open to share your story, either anonymously or not, please let me know as well and maybe we can work something out!

6 click the heart if you like the idea and want to let me know that :) or you can always leave a comment!

 

 

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| Personal | thoughts

you are enough

6 July 2017

tulips

i can be so open
in my thoughts and on paper
sometimes i am a bit weird,
in the sense that i put too much effort in things
things that seem so pointless to others

i am grateful for silly small things like someones love for socks, someone being their weird self, the joy of others in something they really like even if it seems like no big deal to me. A feeling someone gives of. A certain calm or a certain energized happiness.

I want to show people their worth. Especially if they don’t seem to see it themselves. Between a whole lot of arrogant stupid people there are so many souls that light up so bright, they blind themselves. I want to be the person who helps them notice, just how wonderful they are. How they are worth effort, time and space.

I believe in self-love. And at times i don’t live by it myself. Just a kind word can change a whole day, and you do not need to hear those words from someone else. You are enough <3

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| body positivity | Personal

about my skin

13 May 2017

There is something about my skin that I haven’t shared with anybody. Until now that is. When I was 14, I managed to get burned. My upper legs were covered in blisters on a thick red carpet that had formed on my legs. On my hip a blister around the size of my thumb, my arm carrying a red stain, my fingers covered in thin white-translucent blisters and additional marks here and there. I hated the pain. I couldn’t walk for days as it would make my skin stretch and my blisters ache. The heat making everything worse. Simple things like going to the bathroom, sleeping, walking, everything had become too difficult. The pain didn’t last long, about 2 weeks later, I was already hopping through the garden and dancing in the rain. I never really cared about the way it looked. And to this day I still don’t care. Most of it has faded away. As the strange individual that I was I even thought it was quite nice, it tells a silly story.

So why am I sharing this with you?

First of all to warn you for citrus fruits. If you get the juice on your skin, for example on your hands by putting lemon on your meal, if it then gets exposed to sun, it can cause some nasty burns. I believe this is something that mostly happens around the beach with bright sun. It won’t happen that easy here in Holland, but still please be careful! I also once read that a lot of party-people get it from drinking something with lemon juice, which results is a upper lip burn :( Don’t get me wrong I loooove lemons and most citrus fruits, but be careful with them!

The second reason I wanted to share this, is to tell you that scars are not things you have to hide. They don’t make you any more or less beautiful. It might be easy to say this for me, as I was mostly left with scars on the sides of my body and on my legs. They are hardly ever exposed and they are mild burns. As I said, now you can hardly even see them. But scars, no matter the cause or how visible they are. They do not make you any less beautiful.

Lots of love,

Citlali

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-If you want more info on these citrus burns, it’s called phytophotodermatitis and it’s a chemical reaction. You can look it up :)

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