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Last month of the year

22 December 2017

Once again the year flew by so quickly. It’s the last month of the year and to be honest I am not ready yet for December to end.

I wrote a list of goals and as the year went by I changes some and I added more. It’s good to update your goals, however looking at my 2017-2018 goal list it seems as if I failed pretty hard. Looking back at all the things that happened this year I must say I am really happy!

Of course I went trough some shitty things/moments/’experiences’ but overall a lot of good things happened. I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t make a list out of them (or at least the ones I recall at the moment).

I will try to do it as chronological as I can:

  1. I had an awesome course with lots of lab-time
  2. Miracle; I found a sport I liked*
  3. I had the best internship ever**
  4. I met T.
    1. lots of love
    2. lots of growth
    3. lots of happiness
  5. Got my bachelor of science :)
  6. Video-chatted with my sister who was all over the world, taking me along with some of her adventures
  7. Started my MASTER (which is both awesome and scary)
  8. Got a new friend

And there are definitely some more great things that happened in 2017. But I will leave it at this. I know that the list of ‘things of 2017’ will be very different for everyone. And some might not get why I included an internship as a highlight of my year. But that said it is a personal list with things that spark joy in me. So you don’t need to understand it completely.

I hope you think a bit about all the beautiful things that happened to you this year. And I wish you all a very merry Christmas and a happy new year!!!

*kickboxing + bonus I met some realllllly reallly nice people including Madeline & Arjen (they come as a 2 for one :)

**working in the lab with great people creating great workplace. Including awesome students *** and new friends ****

***awesome, crazy, happy, funny, adventurous, and most of all weird in a good way!

****including a very special German one, one who i happened to see today and worlds nr1. potato lover


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VJB visit

17 December 2017

I thought i had a good outlook on the time. But last minute I remembered that the road was still closed so I had to take a little detour. And it was also still cold en not every path would be free of snow, another couple extra minutes. So I still ended up hurrying a bit. Running late as I always seem to do, I still took time to check the mailbox. And on top of unwanted mail there was one letter, addressed to me. First person who I could think of sending me a Christmas letter did not match the handwriting, although the writing looked familiar. Half busy getting my bike i inspected the envelope a bit better and identified the sender. A big smile appeared on my face but I reminded myself I was in a hurry. In a millisecond I decided to put the card in my jacket and open it at my destination.

After locking my bike and checking inside the bar I looked at my phone. Right on time. The person I was meeting wasn’t there yet and I decided to wait outside. I carefully ripped the envelope open and took out a beautiful handcrafted card. As I started to read, my heart filled with warmth and love. I felt thankful to have such an amazing friend and her words were so beautiful. I wanted to teleport myself to her. Give her a tight long hug and many many thanks. Instead I sent her a message: I received your superduper card! You are the sweetest!

As warmth kept filling my heart I saw the person I was to have dinner with riding towards me.

A moment later, we were sitting inside the warm VJB. The cold had made many people stay at home and the bar was almost empty. We ordered and started to talk. This might have been the very first time I was having dinner with only my sister outside the comfort of our own house(s). We know each other so well and yet there was still so much to say. We talked, cried and laughed. The food was once again delicious. It was truly a lovely evening. Riding back home our paths separated.


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Klamme handjes

26 November 2017

There we were together. Walking trough the cold. One hand holding our board the other holding each other. Even though the weather was freezing, your hand was still warm. You let go of my hand. Klamme handjes, you said. I took your hand in mine again. I quite like it, I said, it feels warm and trusted. But only from you. And we both smiled.

Shortly after you were riding you board going far away into the distance. It was dark, but we didn’t mind. I followed on my board. The time it took for you to disappear, was the time it took for me to go 5 meters further. But you came back just as fast.

I was afraid. It got dark and I wasn’t used to my board anymore. I couldn’t see the road ahead anymore. But I tried to follow your lead and there we were. Laughing so hard. Me clumsy, failing to ride forwards. Afraid of what might await me on the dark road. And you trying tricks and just zooming to and fro.

There was no cold then, at that moment. It was just us and our boards in the darkness. Our love lighting our path. The way back went faster, mostly because this time I was on my board as well. We went up and down some speed bumps. Laughing because I thought they were scary, while you thought they were all fun.



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5 things i never thought i could

2 November 2017

go to a concert all by myself
travel alone
follow kickboxing classes
enjoy eating out
be so open on the internet

These are all things that once seemed impossible for me.

I used to get really anxious over the idea of going to a concert, let alone, to go there all by myself. And I did, I went to The head and the heart and it was a really great experience. I am sure lots of people have no trouble going alone to a concert, but for me it was a scary step. And I am really glad I did.

To travel alone. I never went somewhere abroad alone. But I have traveled alone. In many different ways, and I liked it. I love the independence, that you can waste your time without bothering anyone and I love passing things I don’t particularly care about. Having said this, I also really like good company. But it’s nice to know that you don’t need it in order to enjoy your travels.

As a weak skinny person I never thought I would get the courage to go to a kickboxing class. I think that at 20, even a 5 year old would kick my ass in such a class. But I liked the idea, and eventually I just went there without caring if I would ‘fail’. I would do it for myself. And not give a f*ck. And now it is not even a year later, and I am 100% sure it was on of my best decisions in life. Not exaggerating!

Enjoy eating out, never thought I could. Apparently I can!

Internet, I was never to fond on the idea that everyone, all over the world, could ‘find’ something about me. But here i am anyways.

Remember! We are capable of so many great things. Never ever let your fear prevent you from doing what you love.

You can do more then you think, you can do anything you set your mind to, never give up!

Lots of love,


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